Can You Smile

What happened to you staying till you walk me down the aisle.

Was it a lie to make your little fool believe and smile?

That act is too brutal for a child to accept.

I thought you were mature yet you left me with tears to be wept

Will I get over this trauma that you left?

And can you smile?

After knowing that what you wanted destroyed a little girl

Making her innocent world become nothing but a blur

And can you smile?

When  your swift and flawed movements out the family door

Left your little girl blending in with the cold floor? 

Was it the tenth or the eleventh when you walked away suddenly

Was it the words or your actions, that gave the fatal blow

Why can't I remember all those little facts?

Weren't those forced on directly thou I had screamed out no?

Will I ever recover from such an attack?

And can you smile?

After knowing that what you wanted destroyed a little girl

Making her innocent world become nothing but a blur

And can you smile?

When your swift and flawed movements out the family door

Left your little girl blending in with the cold floor.

Yes its true, one man shouldn't dictate my outlook on life

But it is my dad that stab me with the family knife

The warmth of home was realized to be a lie

When a child of only ten was pondering with the question why

Will I ever look back and not cry?

{Sadly even after all the cruelty this heart still seeks after you

You who just disappeared for something new (How could you.)

Well done on your breakthrough that left me stranded

Swimming around in unknown waters wounded. (How are you?)

The blood that connects makes my heart twirl senselessly

When will you help get the light out of this insanity. (Where are you?)

I'm asking you to be that man of guidance that I need politely

Or at least attempt to practice some logical thinking} 

Oh Come Back Please

How can you smile?

After knowing that what you wanted destroyed a little girl

Making her innocent world become nothing but a blur

And can you smile?

When your swift and flawed movements out the family door

Left your little girl alone bleeding on the cold floor.

One-sided

I know about him and your pain

I've seen those tears drop in the rain.

Yet all I can do is watch with clenched fist

Wishing for it to subside like a mist

As am still I not the one

Cause I know you miss him

And That you wish to be hold in only his embrace

Cause at the end of the day, It isn't I 

that you term to have your special place

So

I'm just standing, hopelessly praying

That maybe somehow someday 

you'll see this fool waiting

That will never stop looking out for you and your crying

Besides what else can I do

When I've been living far too long in this dream

In this one-sided romance that I'm still believing

Hence lets not be a wet bucket to stupidity's victory

I'm happily basking in all its futile glory

Illusions of an accurate cupid's arrow

Is as true as that pot of gold at the end of a rainbow

But this view is to be considered pretty 

In the place not called reality.

Yes I know about him and his flaws

And that you will always be blinded to it all.

Cause your heart beats by his cruel hands 

Those controlling hands that I'm unable to understand

But I will not be the one you that seek for

Cause you will always be drawn to him and that danger door

Cause at the end of the day,It isn't I 

who have the ability to shake you to your core.

Hence  

I'm just standing, hopelessly praying

That maybe somehow someday

you'll see this fool waiting

That will never stop loving you and you smiling

Besides what else can I do

When I've been living far too long in this dream

In this one sided romance that I'm living

Hence lets not be a wet bucket to stupidity's victory

I'm happily basking in all its futile glory

Illusions of an accurate cupid's arrow

Is as true as that pot of gold at the end of a rainbow

But this view is to be considered pretty 

In the place not called reality.

Once again I'm by your side

His win by a landslide

Is effectively tearing both of our insides

There are droplets falling down

Thus we can't see clearly

Making love shift in the knife to kill us slowly

Thats why we are both soon to be left with

stitches and bruises from our self inflicted beating

As we had continued to trust in our silly myth

That lie that gave us a heart still aching

Yet 

We're just standing, hopelessly praying

That maybe somehow someday the other will see

That we'll never stop loving even with all the hurting

Besides what else can we do

When we've been living far too long in this cage

In this one sided romance that is destroying 

Hence lets not be a wet bucket to stupidity's victory

After all we're happily basking in all its futile glory

Illusions of an accurate cupid's arrow

Is as true as that pot of gold at the end of a rainbow

But this view is to be considered pretty 

In the place not called reality.

Sadly we still live in reality