Forever

Do you remember our first encounter?
Neither of us saw love at first sight
The idea of love was our back burner
No thoughts of you but work at night
Who would have predicted this

That I'll be watching you walk ever so slowly
With my heart pounding ever so loudly
To be looking at you in this manner
Wanting to simply make you mine forever

Do you remember the next beginning?
The one where fate or chance made magic
Cause suddenly I found my luck rising
I was happily living against any logic
Who would have seen it come to this

That I'll be watching you walk ever so slowly
With my heart pounding ever so loudly
To be looking at you in this manner
Waiting to simply make you mine forever

Does your happiness conquer everything too?
It has been three years in the bag
And more is about to be added on to that
I gazed over and smiled with our 'I do's
Who cares about anything but this

That I'll be holding your hand ever so happily
With my heart pondering ever so lovingly
To be looking at you in this manner
Wanting to call you mine and wife forever

Somehow, Someway

Without prompting,you left me cold
Without warning, the rug was pulled
You said you will never leave me alone
Those ex promises still firmly lingered
Providing the sting that hindered
Somehow someway I have to get moving

Those smiles,those laughters
Had to be nothing more than misses
Those hands,those kisses
Had to be nothing more than memories.
Those times, those promises
Had to be nothing more than words

You've moved on but still kept my chain on.
I'm the fool that is willingly playing along
But now I've grown,now I know more
I'm not your silly doll so decided on
Somehow someway I have to get moving

Those smiles,those laughters
Will become nothing more than misses
Those hands,those kisses
Will become nothing more than memories.
Those times, those promises
Will become nothing more than words

Cause no matter what my hand wasn't raised.
No point hoping when I'm clearly losing
Got to get out of the gutter and be clear
The only thing remaining is to keep moving

Those smiles,those laughters
In time is nothing more than misses
Those hands,those kisses
In time is nothing more than memories.
Those times, those promises
In time is nothing more than words

Words that created both love and hurt

You Say

Why say the words to come back empty handed?
Am I suppose to pretend that nothing happened?
Is my role in life at such a great height?
Honestly I've a phobia of being up so high.
Cause I've already fallen thrice on this ride.

Yet you say
Close your eyes and just feel your way
Do you get the facts that I'm sending?
The one about me never going away.
The one about me being here,staying.
Open your eyes and stare into mine
Do you spot any deception hiding?
Girl,it is true. I want our story to be reopened.

Why ask for trust when you smashed it before?
Am I suppose to leave the past and ignore?
Honestly I see all the sincerity but I can't.
Cause now fear is siding with our terrible past.

Still you say
Close your eyes and just feel your way
Do you get the facts that I'm sending?
The one about me never going away.
The one about me being here,staying.
Open your eyes and stare into mine
Do you see any deception in my eye?
Girl,it is true. I want you for the rest of life.

They say even all good things have to end
That was how our summer vacation went

But you say
Close your eyes and just feel your way
Do you get the facts that I'm sending?
The one about me never going away.
The one about me being here,staying.
Open your eyes and stare into mine
Do you see any deception in my eye?
Girl,it is true. I want you cause I love you.

With those three words I headed off to my fourth mistake
I wonder what the future me would say about me believing
In all that you say

Insomnia

Staying awake,way past bedtime again
Mind throbbing,thoughts never ending
Despite all that,nothing was explained
Frustrations boiling,heart bleeding
Got to escape,here only holds pain
Tears always flowing,slowly dying

Why wouldn't insomnia just run free
Waiting for death before release?
The repeats of sunrise and set
Only makes the brain process upset
Struggling with attempts to cut loose
Before the verdict of life states I lose

On a repeat of counting sheeps
Fluently swearing and scolding
No warmth felt under the sheets
Non-stop denying and lying
Can't turn the tap to stop the weep
Helplessness winning and thriving

Why wouldn't insomnia just run free
Waiting for death before release?
The repeats of sunrise and set
Only makes the brain process upset
Struggling with attempts to cut loose
Before the verdict of life states I lose

Can exhaustion's hand please be raised
Am surviving but not living
Was this what you had desired?
You experiencing while I'm drowning.
Got to mark this as completed
Still waiting,endless wishing

Why wouldn't insomnia just run free
Waiting for death before release?
The repeats of sunrise and set
Only makes the brain process upset
Am failing with attempts to cut loose
Lastly the verdict of life states I lose

How sad,boo hoo

Changing Dreams

The bright lights awaits
Trying to capture the perfect fate
Only focused on making a name
Hoping to obtain a perfect game
Little did I know of the surprise
That has my heart on constant rise

Later the dream would slowly dim
All that matters,was you free from grim
(Unknowingly)
Wanting so badly to hold your hand
Waiting for the day to say 'I'm her man'
All these words and wants sipping
So lets proceed on with the conquering

I told myself to never be blind
To reach the stars,I can't be behind
Yet once your sleeves brushed my arm
Now all I can see is your charm
Gone were the fears of crash and burn
Being next to you was the only concern

Now the previous dream less bright
All that matters,was you alright
(Desperately)
Wanting so badly to hold your hand
Waiting for the day to say 'I'm her man'
All these words and wants roaming
So lets proceed on with the translating

I tapped your shoulder,praying inside
It was time to risk and not hide
I swallowed my fears and recite
the draft i had from previous night

Now my dream is secondary
All that matters is you to agree
(Because I'm)
Wanting so badly to hold your hand
Waiting for the day to say 'I'm your man'
All these words and wants overflowing
So I've proceed on with this confessing

Please do say yes.

Temptations

She walked by and captured my eye, all the reliable thoughts flew out of sight
She took steps and brushed past me,leaving me glued to her light
With one goal and aim for tonight, somehow I got to get the girl to be mine
Recklessness took over, words like 'staying faithful' simply disappeared due to her shine

Down the sinful path of hiding and lies
Its true that she doesn't deserve this but temptation has arise
I follow her down that alley where righteousness is blind
As I say my apologies secretly delivering them with my mind
Guilt aside, all I see is my wants and lies.

Maybe I had a four leaf clover, or maybe life has made itself more interesting
An accomplished task greatly fuels the confidence of continuing
So firmer steps on this paths with a hand in one while another connected behind.
Guess we all could sigh but who could deny a thrilling love being unwind

On the sinful path of hiding and lies
Its true that she doesn't deserve this but temptation has arise
I kissed her and take her to my room,now righteousness is blind
As I say my apologies secretly,delivering them with my mind
Guilt aside, all I see is my wants and lies.

Tears stream down in the late night, yet all ignored during my awakening
Even with all the destroying of the beautiful path,I couldn't be bothered by the harm
Maybe I'm crazy,maybe I lost it cause all i see is the fun.

On the sinful path of hiding and lies
Its true that she doesn't deserve this but temptation has arise
I kissed her and take her to my room,now righteousness is blind
As I say my apologies secretly,delivering them with my mind
Guilt aside, all I see is my wants and lies.

I'm sorry cause I still love you.