Once again

Song/Tune:Mikazuki
Artist: Ayaka

Now I'm left here standing
just waiting for the waves to stop crashing
Recalling and attempting
to get rid of these persistent hauntings

All the wishes and dreams are cling onto so desperately
Cause these memories are chained on so damn tightly
oh what more could i do

I..I..
I haven't stopped being that fool for you
Still hoping that you're my last one
But i know the way of life
this ain't my first time
whoa
I am trying to move on
but why is it, that all is still wrong
I need to get out of this black hole
so what if its true,i still love you so

Who would have known that regret
would never have trouble  winning my war
Once again the curtain falls thou i'm still crying out for more

All the words left unsaid can only transform to blame
Cause you no longer hold that similar flame
oh what more can i proclaim

I..I..
I haven't stopped being that fool for you
Still hoping that you're my last one
But i know the facts of life
this ain't my first time

There is so much in my mind
but barely any makes sense
None wants to throw the final deathblow of the white rose
even if my breakdown is oh so close

I haven't stopped being that fool for you
Still hoping that you're my last one
But i know the truth of life
this ain't my first time
whoa
I am trying to move on
but why is it, that all is still wrong
I need to get out of this black hole
so what if its true,i still love you so
You would still be
the one sorry
I would still have
an idiot's glory

The Fight

The novels provide pages of words
Yet when reality comes along
What do you tell your Lord
Cause at times the right can be so wrong

Yet when you see the smile and the eyes filled with sparks
That simply blows away all the fears of the dark
Makes one take flight and prepare for the fight
The fight for love

I believe in the truth,faith and hope of love
So board the plane and rise above
The harsh reality of His world
And all the criticisms that others choose to hurl

Cause when you see the smile and the eyes filled with sparks
It simply blows away all the fears of the dark
Makes one take flight and prepare for the fight
The fight for love

What may be seen as Einstein's creation
May merely be a simple equation
Just exaggerated with the general skepticism

As when you see the smile and the eyes filled with sparks
That simply blows away all the fears of the dark
Makes one take flight and prepare for the fight
The fight for love
The fight for us.

Insanity (You)

I don't usually make mistake
But this time i was too late
Now i'll wave the white flag
Secretly wishing all this to be a gag

But the truth proclaims
that

If it didn't fly then it wouldn't fall
If i didn't nod then i wouldn't crash
Step by step, I'll admit defeat to misery
Cause all there is left is insanity

I don't usually question my action
But this time I had a whole illusion
Now the master happy with memories
While the puppet is left with apologies


Yet the truth remains
as

If it didn't fly then it wouldn't fall
If i didn't nod then i wouldn't crash
Step by step, I'll admit defeat to misery
Cause all there is left is insanity

Maybe i prayed too hard
Hoping for the light to shine on the sinner's side
Cause now it was clear that i've fallen prey to my own ignorance

The facts still stays
cause

If it didn't fly then it wouldn't fall
If i didn't nod then i wouldn't crash
Step by step, I'll admit defeat to misery
Cause all there is left is insanity

Fighting

Unintentionally, i was falling
Unknowingly, always wishful thinking
Without a care, i threw myself into mindless dreaming.
Cause all i bothered about was me loving.

Yet i delayed, missed her departing boat.
In my created rain without a coat.

I'll admit i'm not perfect
But i'll keep fighting
As her smile is what i protect from being weaken.
I'll admit i'm not
that suitable
But i'll keep fighting
As love for her can't ever be forsaken.

Undoubtedly, she is on my podium
Illogically, he used water on sodium
Without any logic, fear still had the upper-hand
Cause all i bothered about was where she stand

But any delay will cause my fatality
In a self destructive mode called insanity


I'll admit i'm not perfect
But i'll keep fighting
As her smile is what i protect from being weaken.
I'll admit i'm not
that suitable
But i'll keep fighting
As love for her can't ever be forsaken.

There can be no neglection as she is perfection
So no flaw before i proceed for more
As she is worth it all

But..

I'll admit i'm not perfect
But i'll keep fighting
As her smile is what i protect from being weaken.
I'll admit i'm not
that suitable
But i'll keep fighting
As love for her can't ever be forsaken.

i'm glad

hey there i know what you said

don't forget i saw his arms

around you that day

so don't look at me with

those guilty filled eyes

cause it was me that chose 

this path for us instead

cause baby 

i'm glad you're back in my life

even thou i may not call you mine

i'm still glad you're back in my life

cause we can still talk and laugh

all through the night

darling you don't need to feel 

convicted of much

just trust me and be yourself 

like today

cause with time, i promise you

i will be fine

cause baby 

i'm glad you're back in my life

even thou i may not call you mine

i'm still glad you're back in my life

cause we can still talk and laugh

all through the night

the stings and pain short lived 

but do know that i still wouldn't leave

cause baby 

i'm glad you're back in my life

even thou i may not call you mine

i'm still glad you're back in my life

cause we can still talk and laugh

all through the night

Nightmare

It started off really simple
like the stories of ordinary people
We were strangers,friends then lovers
No one understood nor sang the same tune
But soon reality became what it is worth
Soon we parted ways just like their conclusions

Ever had this nightmare?

Where
You are trying but always reaching
Intentions of flying is merely falling
The power of love now the past
Nothing seems right nor real
The pain is just on reply
Mocking the delusional ones

I close my eyes and feel no peace
They say to treat her right and justify my love
Was to release the strings and just feel the pain
But yet now all i see is the hurt in me
With nothing else, no comfort, no warmth
Is this how righteous and self sacrificing men
had always felt?

Isn't this like a nightmare?

Where
You are trying but always reaching
Intentions of flying is merely falling
The power of love now the past
Nothing seems right nor real
The pain is just on reply
Mocking the delusional ones

But don't you know, that i still hold some hope
That maybe the cruel truth becomes happy lies
Maybe the Gods or the interpreter were mistaken
That maybe this was a just a trail to our success

Fact is just stuck in this nightmare

Where
I am trying but always just reaching
Intentions of flying is merely falling
The power of love now the past
Nothing seems right nor real
The pain is just on reply
Mocking the delusional me

Ecstasy

Others carried around disapproval
The world clearly shook it's head
Yet foolish me,thought about truths of  love
'Impossible' a word of ghost stories told
The phrase of love conquering all
Was the outright illusion i held dear
Like a ignorant child,i went along
With false pictures of possible future

Yet the happiness was so strong
You became my healthy ecstasy
Smiling became easier and natural
Simply cause i held your hand in mine
The glares and whispers insignificant
As our initials were marked on one another
I love you (more than it shows to all)

Sadly reality creeps in all the time
Sadly what i felt was strong enough
Cause even as the happiness remained
Reality targeted the conscious
The truth slowly breaking me down
Waving the white flag to the rest
Made me the fool but released you
To a better world

Even with happiness so strong
Despite you're my healthy ecstasy
Smiling became easier for deception
Simply cause i held your hand in mine
The glares and whispers now significant
As our initials were marked on one another
I love you (thus came the struggles)

Inner turmoil was an everyday irritation
Lies became more fluent with conviction
The unknowing plan to show all flaws
Became the sole goal of all interactions
Because even if i had a thousand reasons
None could beat the facts that laid in front
It was me against a better probability

Even with happiness so strong
Despite you're my healthy ecstasy
Smiling became easier for deception
Simply cause i held your hand in mine
The glares and whispers now significant
As our initials were marked on one another
I love you (thus I'm saying goodbye)