Insomnia

Staying awake,way past bedtime again
Mind throbbing,thoughts never ending
Despite all that,nothing was explained
Frustrations boiling,heart bleeding
Got to escape,here only holds pain
Tears always flowing,slowly dying

Why wouldn't insomnia just run free
Waiting for death before release?
The repeats of sunrise and set
Only makes the brain process upset
Struggling with attempts to cut loose
Before the verdict of life states I lose

On a repeat of counting sheeps
Fluently swearing and scolding
No warmth felt under the sheets
Non-stop denying and lying
Can't turn the tap to stop the weep
Helplessness winning and thriving

Why wouldn't insomnia just run free
Waiting for death before release?
The repeats of sunrise and set
Only makes the brain process upset
Struggling with attempts to cut loose
Before the verdict of life states I lose

Can exhaustion's hand please be raised
Am surviving but not living
Was this what you had desired?
You experiencing while I'm drowning.
Got to mark this as completed
Still waiting,endless wishing

Why wouldn't insomnia just run free
Waiting for death before release?
The repeats of sunrise and set
Only makes the brain process upset
Am failing with attempts to cut loose
Lastly the verdict of life states I lose

How sad,boo hoo

Changing Dreams

The bright lights awaits
Trying to capture the perfect fate
Only focused on making a name
Hoping to obtain a perfect game
Little did I know of the surprise
That has my heart on constant rise

Later the dream would slowly dim
All that matters,was you free from grim
(Unknowingly)
Wanting so badly to hold your hand
Waiting for the day to say 'I'm her man'
All these words and wants sipping
So lets proceed on with the conquering

I told myself to never be blind
To reach the stars,I can't be behind
Yet once your sleeves brushed my arm
Now all I can see is your charm
Gone were the fears of crash and burn
Being next to you was the only concern

Now the previous dream less bright
All that matters,was you alright
(Desperately)
Wanting so badly to hold your hand
Waiting for the day to say 'I'm her man'
All these words and wants roaming
So lets proceed on with the translating

I tapped your shoulder,praying inside
It was time to risk and not hide
I swallowed my fears and recite
the draft i had from previous night

Now my dream is secondary
All that matters is you to agree
(Because I'm)
Wanting so badly to hold your hand
Waiting for the day to say 'I'm your man'
All these words and wants overflowing
So I've proceed on with this confessing

Please do say yes.

Temptations

She walked by and captured my eye, all the reliable thoughts flew out of sight
She took steps and brushed past me,leaving me glued to her light
With one goal and aim for tonight, somehow I got to get the girl to be mine
Recklessness took over, words like 'staying faithful' simply disappeared due to her shine

Down the sinful path of hiding and lies
Its true that she doesn't deserve this but temptation has arise
I follow her down that alley where righteousness is blind
As I say my apologies secretly delivering them with my mind
Guilt aside, all I see is my wants and lies.

Maybe I had a four leaf clover, or maybe life has made itself more interesting
An accomplished task greatly fuels the confidence of continuing
So firmer steps on this paths with a hand in one while another connected behind.
Guess we all could sigh but who could deny a thrilling love being unwind

On the sinful path of hiding and lies
Its true that she doesn't deserve this but temptation has arise
I kissed her and take her to my room,now righteousness is blind
As I say my apologies secretly,delivering them with my mind
Guilt aside, all I see is my wants and lies.

Tears stream down in the late night, yet all ignored during my awakening
Even with all the destroying of the beautiful path,I couldn't be bothered by the harm
Maybe I'm crazy,maybe I lost it cause all i see is the fun.

On the sinful path of hiding and lies
Its true that she doesn't deserve this but temptation has arise
I kissed her and take her to my room,now righteousness is blind
As I say my apologies secretly,delivering them with my mind
Guilt aside, all I see is my wants and lies.

I'm sorry cause I still love you.

Once again

Song/Tune:Mikazuki
Artist: Ayaka

Now I'm left here standing
just waiting for the waves to stop crashing
Recalling and attempting
to get rid of these persistent hauntings

All the wishes and dreams are cling onto so desperately
Cause these memories are chained on so damn tightly
oh what more could i do

I..I..
I haven't stopped being that fool for you
Still hoping that you're my last one
But i know the way of life
this ain't my first time
whoa
I am trying to move on
but why is it, that all is still wrong
I need to get out of this black hole
so what if its true,i still love you so

Who would have known that regret
would never have trouble  winning my war
Once again the curtain falls thou i'm still crying out for more

All the words left unsaid can only transform to blame
Cause you no longer hold that similar flame
oh what more can i proclaim

I..I..
I haven't stopped being that fool for you
Still hoping that you're my last one
But i know the facts of life
this ain't my first time

There is so much in my mind
but barely any makes sense
None wants to throw the final deathblow of the white rose
even if my breakdown is oh so close

I haven't stopped being that fool for you
Still hoping that you're my last one
But i know the truth of life
this ain't my first time
whoa
I am trying to move on
but why is it, that all is still wrong
I need to get out of this black hole
so what if its true,i still love you so
You would still be
the one sorry
I would still have
an idiot's glory

The Fight

The novels provide pages of words
Yet when reality comes along
What do you tell your Lord
Cause at times the right can be so wrong

Yet when you see the smile and the eyes filled with sparks
That simply blows away all the fears of the dark
Makes one take flight and prepare for the fight
The fight for love

I believe in the truth,faith and hope of love
So board the plane and rise above
The harsh reality of His world
And all the criticisms that others choose to hurl

Cause when you see the smile and the eyes filled with sparks
It simply blows away all the fears of the dark
Makes one take flight and prepare for the fight
The fight for love

What may be seen as Einstein's creation
May merely be a simple equation
Just exaggerated with the general skepticism

As when you see the smile and the eyes filled with sparks
That simply blows away all the fears of the dark
Makes one take flight and prepare for the fight
The fight for love
The fight for us.

Insanity (You)

I don't usually make mistake
But this time i was too late
Now i'll wave the white flag
Secretly wishing all this to be a gag

But the truth proclaims
that

If it didn't fly then it wouldn't fall
If i didn't nod then i wouldn't crash
Step by step, I'll admit defeat to misery
Cause all there is left is insanity

I don't usually question my action
But this time I had a whole illusion
Now the master happy with memories
While the puppet is left with apologies


Yet the truth remains
as

If it didn't fly then it wouldn't fall
If i didn't nod then i wouldn't crash
Step by step, I'll admit defeat to misery
Cause all there is left is insanity

Maybe i prayed too hard
Hoping for the light to shine on the sinner's side
Cause now it was clear that i've fallen prey to my own ignorance

The facts still stays
cause

If it didn't fly then it wouldn't fall
If i didn't nod then i wouldn't crash
Step by step, I'll admit defeat to misery
Cause all there is left is insanity

Fighting

Unintentionally, i was falling
Unknowingly, always wishful thinking
Without a care, i threw myself into mindless dreaming.
Cause all i bothered about was me loving.

Yet i delayed, missed her departing boat.
In my created rain without a coat.

I'll admit i'm not perfect
But i'll keep fighting
As her smile is what i protect from being weaken.
I'll admit i'm not
that suitable
But i'll keep fighting
As love for her can't ever be forsaken.

Undoubtedly, she is on my podium
Illogically, he used water on sodium
Without any logic, fear still had the upper-hand
Cause all i bothered about was where she stand

But any delay will cause my fatality
In a self destructive mode called insanity


I'll admit i'm not perfect
But i'll keep fighting
As her smile is what i protect from being weaken.
I'll admit i'm not
that suitable
But i'll keep fighting
As love for her can't ever be forsaken.

There can be no neglection as she is perfection
So no flaw before i proceed for more
As she is worth it all

But..

I'll admit i'm not perfect
But i'll keep fighting
As her smile is what i protect from being weaken.
I'll admit i'm not
that suitable
But i'll keep fighting
As love for her can't ever be forsaken.