AKB 5th ELECTION

AKB Election. My first their fifth.

My very first post outside of lyrics. There is just so many feelings that I can't help but pen it down. Will anyone read this? Nope. However this has to be one of the most valuable experience in being a novice akb48 fan.

Oshi (the member that you support):
Firstly, I would wish to comment on the specific few that I had came to love over the mere 2 months of spazzing about them.

1-Yokohoma Yui
The beloved one in my heart. I like her heart. There is just something about her that is amazing and she ranked 13th without last year's meltdown. Still I found it hilarious when it was she who had an escort awaiting for her to freak out and maybe even roll on the floor or something similar. The other members lighthearted release at all of Yuihan's feels is really nice to see. I'm glad that she is there as part of the all important top 16. Loves.

2-Matsui Jurina
She strives and tunnels through everything with an adorable smile. Being that young of an age yet coupled with a force so mind blowing that just attracts people to her. I'm really glad that she had climbed into and is part of the new Kami7! Hats off to you.

3-Oshima Yuko
The one that made me involved with akb. The one whose acting made me fall in love. She is beloved, praiseworthy and so many more adjectives that I can't recall. The way she had truly embraced what she had said in the election video. This year's election is a festival! Even though disappointment was there when she didn't clinch the centre role, the way she brightly smiled for us, laughed, I couldn't help but smile along. The first vote for you in my life and with that smile, I must say this year's election was a festival. A festival that I truly enjoyed whole heartedly with your wide grin.

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Now on with the crown jewel. To some it was a shocker, a dark horse that... ...well was pretty much hidden. It wasn't that no one heard of her. It wasn't that she did poorly in the last election. Frankly, this lady that you all claimed to be 'non-centre' material, had achieved first in the early voting count. Still no one really believed that she would do it.

IN YOUR FACE! SASHIHARA RINO is elected FIRST!

Yes, she isn't one of my favourite member, but honestly you can't hate her. She managed to get the votes. Votes that her supporters spent their hard earn cash on. Do not discount her efforts or her fans efforts. They, like all other fan and members, had indeed worked hard. To say that she doesn't deserve it, that will be inappropriate. Do I wish that Yuko had won it? Yes. Would I prefer it if Yuko had won? YES! However the fact is Sashi won. So people who are having all these negative feels, take a moment, breathe, then smile. Yuko did (A valid reason in my opinion).

Hearing her speech then researching a little more about her, one must admire how far she had come. With a scandal in her bag, being transported to a relatively unknown group, then rising them, forging a friendship with them, etc, I must say people take your hats off for some respect for this lady. Furthermore, her insecurities about the centre, openly seeking help from Yuko in her speech, I felt reflected the image of AKB. IF AKB was planned to have a girl next door approach then I must say she is a possible and kind of well suited candidate. This is a normal girl who had strived hard to clear the hurdles and complete the race of life. I find that admirable. So CONGRATULATIONS!

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Mariko-sama. This one here is upsetting. A fundamental piece of AKB announced graduation in a mere month's time. Oh how I am going to miss her when she is gone. Words, I wish to type seem so small beside the true magnitude of how this graduation will impact all those in AKB.

Still, she has moved on. A clothing line to her name, one that is simple and sophisticated. I wish her all the best and shall have a gay moment to continue the tears later on.

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Overall, this years election has been a festival. Never a true dull moment, countless spazz moment and fidgets of nervousness. If what Aki-P (Producer of AKB) wanted was a change then it has been delivered. It was not the new vs the old, we had been hit by a wind so fresh that we all need a moment. This election will be remembered as the one where predictions will always be an estimation of reality. Reality will always be something larger than life. My first election, my newbie feelings, I'm glad I had joined the AKB fandom.

Movie's Over

Movie’s Over

Song/Tune: Movie’s Over

Artist:Block B

Yeah yeah oh oh oh
Yeah yeah oh oh oh
Yeah yeah oh oh oh
Oh oh oh

The rain tap dancing on the window, told me that God knew about pain

The slow waltz of the flowing air shows indifference to my window pain

Through it all, I’m clearly flawed, 

It was neither her fault nor yours

Its the clouds that didn’t soften anybody’s downfalls

Woah woah woah woah (yeah)
Woah woah woah woah (woah baby)

Discard me from your innocent mind

Leave these emotions of blind love behind

Woah woah woah woah
Woah woah woah woah yeah

That is the right way 

Don’t choose the other 

Cause this path heads no where

Movie’s over. Life ain’t no bed of roses

It is just a juggle, survival of the fittest

Bye bye good bye bye

Don’t make things hard girl

Please just let me be

The thought was nice 

The intention was sweet 

But you choose to love the villain that shot love.

Uh uh it’s over uh.

Don’t fight against the downpour

The rainbow, your hallucination

Happy endings will become our brick wall

In other words, incoming pitfalls

These are warnings not a round of empty threats

I’m no coward in front of commitment acts

It is through commitment that I care to tell you all these facts

And with that, 

I hope you care enough to follow through on not coming back

You must think that I’m some kind of joke

What kind of fellow will heed the words of a silent folk

Yet I’m serious in asking you to abandon this ship

Cause there will be nothing here but broken pieces

Must you wait and see for what I say to hold true and the truth

Woah woah woah woah
Woah woah woah woah yeah

Carry on the path with a lighter load

Stir away from love’s black hole

Movie’s over. Life ain’t no bed of roses

It is just a juggle, survival of the fittest

Bye bye good bye bye

Don’t make things hard girl

Please just listen to me

The thought was nice 

The intention was sweet 

But now choose to love another better person please.

If the doubt rebels and shows the real me hesitating about what I’ve been preaching

Then baby, please pretend not to see my inadequacy in avoiding the risks of love

Movie’s over. Life ain’t no bed of roses

It is just a juggle, survival of the fittest

Bye bye good bye love

Don’t make things hard girl

Please leave me already

The thoughts were nice 

The intentions were sweet 

I can’t live up to be your man. It’s over

Uh uh it’s over uh.

Goodnight.

The sun rises then setting. Coloring the blue sky amber

Wishing for it to be stronger to make this blue heart brighter

Walking down avenue lane mimicking the steps that you took 

Those steps that that never once looked back or hesitate

Damn, I must be mental, as who tests the sharpness of their own needles

But I know

what hurts the most wasn't you missing but me missing

it wasn't the emptiness that strangles the air out of me

but the wholesome memories that snatches the breathe 

Nothing present in tense , to everyone but me this made sense 

Life commanding me to accept the good in the goodbye

Yet all I see is the greatness in a rare valuable good night.

You said you were sick of us, tired of the hands that was holding you back

I'm say I'm sick of me, the useless me waiting for the interlocking to be back

You already begin seeking for that worthy man to sweep you off your feet

I have been wishing for the day that living doesn't mean dragging my feet

You and the last polite apologizes for burning away our possible reality

I too have to apologizes for fooling my heart in thinking of beating reality

You'll sing the new tunes but I'm stuck singing our blues.

Lyrics that reads

what hurts the most wasn't you missing but me missing

it wasn't the emptiness that strangles the air out of me

but the wholesome memories that snatches the breathe 

Nothing present in tense , to everyone but me this made sense 

Life commanding me to accept the good in the goodbye

Yet all I see is the greatness in a rare valuable good night.

So this time is for real. My last song of remedy and reminiscing for you.

As the evil side has won, and now I wish to see regret as your final bow.

That fatal blow that makes me smirk when I see you and sorry on your face

With that, this time I'm be the one saying nothing and turning to walk away

So even if 

what hurts the most wasn't you missing but me missing

it wasn't the emptiness that strangles the air out of me

but the wholesome memories that snatches the breathe 

Nothing present in tense this stubborn heart has come to its sense 

Life enlightening me about the good in the goodbye

Cause all I see is the greatness in finding closure with goodnight.

My Muse

Song/Tune: 무단횡단

Artist:성준

Time was ticking, world still spinning I'm part of the breathing

Was roaming as inspiration had left me shivering in the cold

Then I saw you in all your beauty hence I stood there blatantly admiring you

Then it all begin

I knew what to write I knew those notes 

With you they wouldn't

I meant couldn't bare to leave me alone

Meaning this angel in jeans is going to be my muse.

Now phase two, getting you to like me as the Gods said so

You see behind every legend lies that special creation for them and me

So you need to see this diamond here, the next rock and Rolling Stones of the 21st

With that mindset

I'm standing before you with my slick looks

And you can't reject me

Cause I'm only prepared for the victory

And congratulations from the Rock Gods as you're my muse

Fine that may have been a bad confession

but who takes those cupid crap these days

I'm being honest

Plus I'll never jaywalk or betray your heart

Music taught us all to care and love for our one valuable muse

Will you be my muse

Would you be my muse

So please be my muse

You are my only muse

Never-ending Song

The crazy love that was born out of your reckless behavior 
We strolled down life, hand in hand with our own rhythm and rhymes
All cause you had enlightened me about the joy of this craziness
You would skip and twirl telling me that religion ain’t going to be bother
Saying that it is peace, love and ice cream that will make this world better.

Taking my hand you telling me this is the first steps of a lasting couple
That the old you and me will still be together without a care for the world
That opinions are ever present but may not always be a worthy present
But anyone who causes me to shed a tear will have your intense attention.
Singing and shouting, the carefree spirit inside brings out the best of our life.
Cause with that frame of mind, we create more of the beauty of our time.

As like you say the terms of the ride of life states always oscillating
But that doesn't mean we can't enjoy the highs and lows of living
With a smile, we can always happily wait for the day of wining
So even with a little bump we must always keep on trying
That this is the true power and accurate unknown meaning of loving 
Thus we will produce the sweetest melody of love's beautiful singing.
Hence the never-ending song will be awaiting our signature's marking.

The shout-out to those who fear the hand of judgement was to move forward.
That turning back at the wall is like you’re at heaven’s door but you’re moving backwards.
You smile so wide as you told me your little own theory with pride.
This was your definition of what is love, one that is untainted by their eyes 
I smile back at you and was glad to be the one kissing you goodnight.

As like you say the terms of the ride of life states always oscillating
But that doesn't mean you can't enjoy the highs and lows of living
With a smile, we can always happily wait for the day of wining
So even with a little bump we must always keep on trying
That this is the true power and accurate unknown meaning of loving 
Thus we will produce the sweetest melody of love's beautiful singing.
Hence the never-ending song will be awaiting our signature's marking.

Then you abruptly unintentionally pulled out all of your stakes.
Staring and recalling reality's cruel game as I look upon your grave.
The audience disperse with mixed emotions as reality has stated its claim.
Disgust flows as I watch those who tear despite still shaking their heads
As they can't see past the fogged up mirror by their prejudice shame
What used to be part known as a little dirt is now an evident stain

Recalling you saying that the terms of this ride states always oscillating
But that doesn't mean you can't enjoy the highs and lows of living
With a smile, we can always happily wait for the day of wining
So even with a little bump we must always keep on trying
That this is the true power and accurate unknown meaning of loving 
Thus we will produce the sweetest melody of love's beautiful singing.
Hence the never-ending song will be awaiting our signature's marking.

But your smile will only be captured forever but we're classified as once together
The pain of moving on or the stagnant joy of reminiscing causes my insides to be torn.
What use to be empowerment is now engulfing me in flames that are too strong
Oh what I’ll do to awake from this nightmare and continue with our never-ending song.
So don’t just replay your theory in my head and come back to our the never-ending song.

I Knew It Would Be Like This

Song/Tune: 이럴 줄 알았어 (I Knew This Would Happen)

Artist: 비스트(B2ST)

I knew it would be like this

This play can only turn out that way

Winter has now turned to spring and the flowers has started blooming already but you're still troubled over something

All those talk about how the weather had gotten the better of you and left you only singing our blues 

But it was all a lie right? How about you man up and clarify!

Instead of me guessing (Only about all the bad outcomes)

How about you just be honest 

Either drop the knife upon us or get your act together and turn this ship around

I knew it would be like this 

We'll be hitting the rocks without any hesitating 

Soon the final call resounds

I knew you would be like this

So how about I say it for you we're now memories that was once a reality.  

Darling we've been together for such a long time

Did think that I wouldn't notice that change in your eyes

The way you look at me without that old flame or sparkle

Correct maybe I'm just deluding  my mind.

Trying push back the deadline in case you may regret

Even though I know that it wouldn't be that case at all

Cause darling you're no longer that darling

So here I've drawn our curtains. Yes you can walk away. 

It will only be the end

Even though you haven't said a thing

Cause it has been decide I'm to be left with your goodbye 

Hence it doesn't matter if I had stab myself first 

As the outcome will never be our sweet forever 

I knew it would be like this 

We will be hitting the rocks without any hesitating 

The final call will resounds

I knew you would be like this

So how about I say it for you we're now memories that was once a reality.

Did I do anything wrong 

( but you'll just say dear it was fate that left me stranded in this storm)

Or was it you're fault 

( How could you be so cold and leave me battling with reminiscing) 

Alright I should just move on so stop replying your smile in my head my baby please

( You seriously need to be removed from my head)

The person that had made you change your mind

The person that had you running away with my mind

How about you just stop for a moment and be real kind

Spare a minute on how you could have embrace her heart while holding mine

Did you forget that fact or were you having troubles 

Remembering about that fact that we were still together

I'm sitting on the fence perplexed and amazed by your one of a kind two face act

I knew it would be like this 

We will be hitting the rocks without any hesitating 

The final call has resound 

I knew you would be like this

So I have said it for you we're now nothing but strangers living in reality

Time Machine

Song/Tune: Time Machine

Artist: Girl's Generation

Watching your back view get smaller as the space between gets larger

It's over, guess it's over.

Your strides seem to be getting firmer, my tears' are getting stronger.

Hurry go before I pull you back to this selfish forever.

One mistake, got a one regret

Why did I make the beginning of 'the end' .

I don't know and I'll never comprehend

Oh why did I have to hold both of their hands

I need a time machine then I can do more good

Instead of proving that there is a love this unbeautiful

Need it right now, need to do what's right

Gotta go back and not make you part of the sinful 

I need a time machine 

I need a time machine

Our story tainted with the terrible awful word of unfaithful

It is the greatest wrong in taking off on the wrong foot

What should I do now, my heart is beating through, Just don't look back my mind will come around

Move on thats the solution to this mess.

Just one mistake,Just one regret

All cause I couldn't resist temptation's test

I need a time machine then I can do more good

Instead of proving that love can be this unbeautiful

Need it right now, need to do what's right

Gotta go back and not cause love to be sinful 

I need a time machine 

You needed a gentleman not a greedy man

Someone way better than me

Someone to prevent the tears

Not one who burdens you with the stones of guilt when fog clears.

I need a time machine then I can do more good

Instead of only creating a love this unbeautiful

Need it right now, need to do what's right

Gotta go back and not be that sinful

Gotta go back and let love remain colorful.

Gimme a time machine 

Gimme a time machine

Gimme a time machine

Beside(s)

No flower would bloom when the seed isn't planted

The bridge can't be crossed unless a first step is taken

No future can be predicted as proven by miracles 

And acknowledgement without action is just mere words

Annoyingly fear surrounds my outlook on the future

Refuting the claims of how years will make one more mature

Thus secretly with an outstretched hand approaching

Upfront playing the role of friendship to the best of my ability

Smiling at me,you proudly brag about how I'm the best friend

Smiling at you, my heart begins to fix the unintentional dent

Yet day by day I'm still wearing the label 

That allows me to be that emotionally conflicting close by

In time only regret will remain behind

Still I'm always only frantically for the courage to break free

Wasting all these precious crucial time

Honestly girl, I do have a thousand ways of confessing to you

Words that will convey and make you sway

Followed by actions that will definitely make you so gay 

Eyes sparkles with the confession hidden within

Only quick glimpse are exchanged between you and me

My mouth remains shut, the voice still too timid.

As fear of rejection and losing you altogether controls me

Watching the world spin by, with you beside

We continue to sit at our usual spot, an inch of separation in between

The desired clouds and love fantasy

Confidently I can state that with us all that will be a reality

Yet my tongue is on lockdown 

With a shut mouth once again, I'm courage's letdown

Struggling in my role as the conflicted

Trying to search for the answer that will go past the depicted

The best excuse in concluding

Is to say that rejection will leave me with nothing but nothing

Internally I had irresponsibly made an excuse that love is the sickness

Internally hating the fact that I'm only reaching due to my weakness

Yet day by day I'm still wearing the label 

That allows me to be that emotionally conflicting close by

In time only regret will remain behind

Still I'm always only frantically for the courage to break free

Wasting all these precious crucial time

Honestly girl, I do have a thousand ways of confessing to you

Words that will convey and make you sway

Followed by actions that will definitely make you so gay 

Eyes sparkles with the confession hidden within

Only quick glimpse are exchanged between you and me

My mouth remains shut, the voice still too timid.

As fear of rejection and losing you altogether controls me

Watching the world spin by, with you beside

We continue to sit at our usual spot, an inch of separation in between

You talk about another crook

Simultaneously anxiety and relief washes over this fool

I only offer my shoulder and a listening ear

As the act of you snuggling in my arms quietly disappears

Cause the timing of when the friend would offer

Has once again, gone by without a single murmurer 

Your head casually leans on me 

If I could I would but I didn't hence we're staying in that position

Silently you try to gather back your temporary lost happiness.

Silently I'm stuck with searching for my permanently lost senses. 

Yet day by day I'm still wearing the label 

That allows me to be that emotionally conflicting close by

In time only regret will remain behind

Still I'm always only frantically for the courage to break free

Wasting all these precious crucial time

Honestly girl, I do have a thousand ways of confessing to you

Words that will convey and make you sway

Followed by actions that will definitely make you so gay 

Eyes sparkles with the confession hidden within

Only quick glimpse are exchanged between you and me

My mouth remains shut, the voice still too timid.

As fear of rejection and losing you altogether controls me

Watching the world spin by, with you beside

We continue to sit at our usual spot, an inch of separation in between

Staying true in being that friend that is always beside

But never close enough to have you only by my side

微笑

我不懂 你今是否躲在哪里 

只知道 现实又再次不公平 

这样慌 可能只在浪费力气 

不停找 但你还是下落不明 

焦急心 使我思考只出问题 

慢下来 试着冷静地再细想 

所拥有 只是我慌张的心思 

只拥有 想对你说出口的真情

有时候 你并不需过独立磨练

你看看 我们仍然在你的身边 

所以你 不要把悲伤藏在一边 

眼泪流 不代表有弱者在面前 

如果你 不要弱的一面被看见 

那我能 闭眼把你哭当成谣言 

烦恼留 在我肩膀心情变好先

微笑吧 理想的快乐将会实现

旁观者 不能减轻你的负担 

旁观者 只能试着让你改观 

使用话 赶出你心里的阴暗

就是我 所能做的残酷极限 

坦率说 话是不能解决困难 

更何况 听到的是糟糕语言 

但期望 真实的尝试被发现

请相信 你将会走在平安路线

有时候 你并不需过独立磨练 

你看看 我们仍然在你的身边 

所以你 不要把悲伤藏在一边 

眼泪流 不代表有弱者在面前 

如果你 不要弱的一面被看见 

那也能 闭眼把你哭当成谣言 

只是我 希望你烦恼留在我肩

微笑吧 理想的快乐将会实现

一人撑一人疼一人去改错 

满脑子只有失败回忆在绕 

你也无时无刻的在寻解脱 

该放下倔强把抱负给减少 

因为你的责任感是太狂扩 

所以请你再次听我唠叨地说
 

有时候 你并不需过独立磨练 

你看看 我们仍然在你的身边 

所以你 不要把悲伤藏在一边 

眼泪流 不代表有弱者在面前 

如果你 不要弱的一面被看见 

那也能 闭眼把你哭当成谣言 

只是我 希望烦恼留在我肩膀 

微笑吧 理想的快乐将会实现

雨后的彩虹是你哭后的笑容

Venus & Mars

In the books they say venus is a lady created for the arts

But when I see you I swear venus has landed safely in my heart

This was the first to line of the start of a simple confession

However the outcome was far from the imagined ideal situation

As now I'm here running after you trying to let you see my light

While you tell me that I must be dreaming of a sun in the night

Implying out loud that I'm out of mind and maybe blind to the truth

That I would never be known as the man beside your beautiful youth

Wait hold up

Oh shut up

Hey girl don't tell me that I'm blind.

No it is stupidity and you combined

Cause you don't get this feeling filling me

I don't get why I get you to like me

Girl can't you tell what kind of man I am inside?

If only I'm able to survive the outside

Give me a chance and I'll definitely prove my point

Your smile is like the gentle breeze on a hot summer

Providing the much needed relief from my burning desire

Before disappearing and making me face the heat alone

The friction of a one way track always will be rougher

Still I belief in the hope and bright side of our future love

I just need you to really see the honest heart within me

Then maybe you will say yes to the start of our fantasy.

The reason you compared me to the heat of summer

It is because I'm too hot for a minor from Mars to handle.

Clear your head and take a good look in the mirror

Cause it definitely showed you that I'm out of your league.

Accept the simple truth little boy and get your act together

Maybe now you will finally comprehend reality's picture

Then maybe this goddess from Venus will be free from torture.

Wait hold up

Oh shut up

Hey girl don't tell me that I'm blind.

No it is stupidity and you combined

Cause you don't get this feeling filling me

I don't get why I get you to like me

Girl can't you tell what kind of man I am inside?

If only I'm able to survive the outside

Give me a chance and I'll definitely prove my point

Trust me girl, it is what I am inside that really matters

Give me a chance and you'll know I'm much stronger

Than what you conjure up from looking at my cover

Take a leap of faith and you'll see that we are for the better

Cause my sincerity and love will never allow you to suffer

You boys talk a whole lot, but all a bunch of liars

No way will I allow you to be one of love's murderer

So wake up and save your pretty little talk scripted by Mars

No amount of sugar will grant you a place under my shelter

Hence stop all these unnecessary act of a sore loser

Wait a moment, hear me out

Girl don't tell me that I'm ignorant, 

I'm just chasing with the drive derived from my love's pure innocence

I'm not living an illusion by confessing

I'm just expressing in words the act of me reaching for our sweet beginning

So girl it is not I who is blind

It isn't stupidity and me combined that has clouded my mind 

Cause you don't get this feeling inside

Girl let me show you the kind of man I am inside 

Give me a chance and I'll definitely prove my point

I'm Just Saying

Hello there little child of mine
Love and joy somehow comes with this lingering sense of insecurities and blues
Guess this is how it is when one is drowning under the strength of 'lost without a clue.'
The complicated foreign language of adulthood undoubtedly arrived too soon.
Now I look upon your face, with apologetic eyes as I say,Hello there what am I to do.
Foolish me, how can a baby teach a child to evade and solve her impending doom
I should be the one reaching out and sheltering you from reality's gloom
Determination to overcome any bad forecast make me believe there is no tomb
All a matter of whether I am willing to change this bad luck that looms


Cause it is only a slip-up in a teenage dream
But those pretty words simply imply things weren't meant to or planned to be like this.
With education, my actions aren't termed as a misjudgement as it was pure ignorance
Which had held the upper hand in my mind due to those moment of sweet 'innocence'.
I may be a silly little girl that time but nothing will sway this decision of mine
I'm saying cheers to those disapproval unsympathetic prejudice eyes
Cause one day somehow in someway I'm beating my self-imposed hardship of life.


Hello there shaking heads
Questions flowing, brows cringing,it really isn't that hard to understand?
This was what had occurred and these are consequences to be comprehend
So how about stay to lend a helping hand instead of whispering behind one's back.
Oh right, my bad,How could I had forgotten about that tiny little fact
Blood is thicker than water is only applicable for those sentences with a bail
Shut your eyes and cover your ears, focus only on my breathing and what I'm saying.
Ignore them, my boy, do not know their ugly words, just like those minor holes in our sail.
Because soon enough, we shall and would be basking in glory that I shall be attaining
Don't be fooled,this could all just be another round of wishful thinking,I'm just saying


Cause it is only a slip-up in a teenage dream
But those pretty words simply imply things weren't meant to or planned to be like this.
With education, my actions aren't termed as a misjudgement as it was pure ignorance
Which had held the upper hand in my mind due to those moment of sweet 'innocence'.
I may be a silly little girl that time but nothing will sway this decision of mine
I'm saying cheers to those disapproval unsympathetic prejudice eyes
Cause one day somehow in someway I'm beating my self-imposed hardship of life.


Hello there, little boy of mine.
I'm fully aware of the truth that I'm looking at your beautiful face at the wrong time.
But I will take the burden of showing both of us some form of hope's eluding light
As I stand firm in what I believe and reach out towards my one true selfish spotlight
Don't worry my love, we shall be free from statistics cause there is no everlasting night
So hear me sing this song to you as we prepare for the uphill slope against life


Cause this is only a slip-up in my teenage dream
Yes,those pretty words do not imply things weren't meant to or planned to be like this.
With education, my actions are termed as a misjudgement as it isn't pure ignorance
Which had held the upper hand in my mind during those moment of sweet 'innocence'.
I was not a silly little girl that time and nothing will sway this decision of mine
I'm saying cheers to those disapproval unsympathetic prejudice eyes
Cause one day somehow in someway I'm beating His evil imposed of hardship in my life.

Words and Only Words

Song/Tune: 放了自己

Artist: 魔幻力量 

A shameful lowered gaze 

As regrets and guilt, wraps the heart in an endless cry

Hence I’m here to apologize 

For all the failures that made those smiling words become nothing but a lie

I may wish for all to change, but it won’t

What can I do? What should I do? 

How can I move on with you in the blues 

All those memories, all the promise

Is there no win-win situation?

Cause I can’t believe, that all there is 

Is for me to proceed thou knowing you’re alone

Why can’t I give you something more than another pile of words 

For you to claim as your own?

The rest have proceeded on just fine 

While I’m left with a facade

To continue with this life

I remember that day like yesterday

Where my hands could only reach and grab nothing but the cold air of goodbye

What can I do? What should I do? 

How can I move on with you in the blues 

All those memories, all the promise

Is there no win-win situation?

Cause I can’t believe, that all there is 

Is for me to proceed thou knowing you’re alone

Why can’t I give you something more than another pile of words 

For you to claim as your own?

I don’t want this. I really hate this

But reality is forcing me that way

What should I do? What can I do?

Can someone provide the answers?

I miss you so. I still want you.

Won’t the truth let you come back with a smile 

To tell me that the road ahead in the end will be fine 

Cause you are still beside

Ultimately, the facts states

That once again, I’ve left you with words and only words.

(Sorry...)